I still hurt

It's been almost a year and I still have strong feelings for you. I still think about you everyday. I still cry hard. I still suffer with what we could have had. You tell me that you still care about me very much and that you don't want me out of your life, but you don't want a relationship. It is very clear that you don't know what you want. One day I will not be there and maybe you will see how empty your life will be. I want to stop crying and hurting because of you. I try to pull away from you and you will not let me. What is it that you want from me!!